When you are in love for the first time it is an exhilarating experience, and your heart beats every time you see him or her. You love the way they look, smell, act, and they love you back the same. Time stops every time you two kiss and touch saying the words, “I love you.” To each other which fills you with warm fuzzies. The thing with first loves is it does not last, and after your first love breaks your heart you fear you will never find someone better than them. Lie.
After your first love you will find someone else, and realize that honestly each relationship prepares you for the next. It is a fact that people will come and go, but true love will last no matter what. Sometimes loves can change you for better, or leave you in a hole of depression if your not careful then wonder what you did when it had nothing to do with you at all. Sometimes it prepares you for the next love cause there will be a next one after the first. I think about first loves because of one of my characters who had her heart broken by her first, and I am going to impart the lesson to readers with the fact that after the first love comes an even better relationship, and it is not the end of the world if he breaks your heart in high school. In college is where you can possibly meet the love of your life.
College is where I met mine, and sometimes you will not meet them until you are an adult. Any thoughts about first loves, and how it can change you?
I have been busy with work and studying for tests. I will be blogging more on my time off from work. I have been through a lot lately. The one thing I have discovered though is I lost the urge to write revenge, and I will admit one of the reasons why I wrote one of my stories is because I loved the thought of people getting what they deserve. I loved the thought of people who are horrible to others dying by people who they victimized.
The answer to revenge though is not letting them effect you what so ever. It is no longer revenge that motivates me, but love that does. It is an anchor in a way, and without it then you go down a road you do not want to go. The people that wrong you and pick on you are actually a bunch of jealous people who are miserable with their lives. They put down others to make themselves feel better, and then it does, but the feeling goes away then they are looking to do it all over again.
The same thing goes for spending too much money on things because you think it would make you happy. In all reality it is actually instant gratification that is making you behave that way. I used to be like that, and I just stopped because I have all I could possibly want right now. A mom who loves me, and cooks for me, a dad who spoils me, friends, technology, and a loving, caring boyfriend that is all I could ask for.
People bullied me not because of this or that, but because I have a good life. I am more grateful now for it. I love my Kindle Fire, Ipod touch, .38 revolver, Xbox 360, and PSP I was so busy I did not have time for friends or video games. I need those things though in order to be more happy, and hanging with friends is what makes me happy, and so do video games. The answer to revenge is not to hurt the person, but to forgive, move on, and do the things that make you happy. Working towards a successful career helps too.