Retribution is Mine is Being Worked on!

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Retribution is Mine is being worked on which means going through papers to see where I left off, and remembering what I have so far. I forgot some of the plans, and now I’m happy to say I remember them. Looking over the old stuff too like this scene:

This is one of the old scenes from Retribution is Mine: “That is all for today.” I tell Aria Stevens a member of the Agency who recently got chosen. Only day 1 but she has gotten off to a good start. I run a hand through my hair as the sweat runs into my eyes. Training always makes me sweat I am in the training room of The Killer Contract Agency, and I’m going to start classes with the students at Southbend. It will be annoying going to school all over again. At least college girls are more mature than high school ones.
 
Old version:
“We found her.” My eyes widen. Could it be her after all these years? The girl of my dreams, and the one promised to me? Of course she is a human though, but she is like no other. One put through the challenges of life to see the way she builds herself up.
“Where?”
“Surrey in Canama county. It is the one we have been looking for, and the bad thing is her energy signature is messed up.” says Rickfield Harris the one responsible for finding charges.
Oh no and I had a feeling that would happen too. I sat in a chair in a grey room with the screen and control room used to pick out killer contract Agency operatives. I was looking for the human called a FireRager. My mate too since I’m destined to be with one, but the bad thing is they have genes that when used with the powers can turn them into assassins or make them insane. Messed up energy signatures are bad because it signals so much abuse that if not treated well the person can be driven to commit suicide.
“Name?”
“Scarlet Nightshade a graduate from Surrey Slip high, and another piece of good news? She is going to attend South Bend University this fall.”
“Excellent.”
I cannot wait to finally meet the girl so we will live happily ever after.
Some of the scenes are way different, and Dante used to be Anubis, and it also introduces Phoenix which is Dante’s brother who used to be called Aquarius. Going through the notes I also see old school ones since I wrote them during class, or during the boring times of my last job. Not too much downtime in my new one, but on days off I can play in the story world in between trying to find a full-time writing job close to my major. In the meantime reading all I can to succeed in writing, and playing games. It’s a waiting game when it comes to certain things like waiting for feedback from one more beta reader, and then I will look over it. Then when it’s ready to send it to Liz, and then time to come up with ideas for the cover. Retribution is mine takes place where book 1 took off, and it tells the story of how Scarlet became a vampire, and how she met Dante and works for The Killer Contract Agency.
Also, The Killer Contract Agency will be published in other places after July 15th. Its time in select has run out, and it doesn’t do me any good to continue in it.
Until next update,
Jessica Samuels
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Love and Revenge…

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I have been busy with work and studying for tests. I will be blogging more on my time off from work. I have been through a lot lately. The one thing I have discovered though is I lost the urge to write revenge, and I will admit one of the reasons why I wrote one of my stories is because I loved the thought of people getting what they deserve. I loved the thought of people who are horrible to others dying by people who they victimized.

The answer to revenge though is not letting them effect you what so ever. It is no longer revenge that motivates me, but love that does. It is an anchor in a way, and without it then you go down a road you do not want to go. The people that wrong you and pick on you are actually a bunch of jealous people who are miserable with their lives. They put down others to make themselves feel better, and then it does, but the feeling goes away then they are looking to do it all over again.

The same thing goes for spending too much money on things because you think it would make you happy. In all reality it is actually instant gratification that is making you behave that way. I used to be like that, and I just stopped because I have all I could possibly want right now. A mom who loves me, and cooks for me, a dad who spoils me, friends, technology, and a loving, caring boyfriend that is all I could ask for.

People bullied me not because of this or that, but because I have a good life. I am more grateful now for it. I love my Kindle Fire, Ipod touch, .38 revolver, Xbox 360, and PSP I was so busy I did not have time for friends or video games. I need those things though in order to be more happy, and hanging with friends is what makes me happy, and so do video games. The answer to revenge is not to hurt the person, but to forgive, move on, and do the things that make you happy. Working towards a successful career helps too.

Any thoughts on success being the best revenge?

Until next time,

Wolfdreamer25

Why Revenge?

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Another thought occurred to me why write about revenge? It is a touchy subject to some people. One thing is for sure some people out there have all been wronged one way or another. People deal with ways over being wronged in different ways for instance I write about it. Some people have the gift of letting it go, and getting over it quickly. Some people don’t though. 

There are people that don’t think about how to get back at them and make them pay, but I do. It is not a good thing though to do that because some say it is giving them power over you.

The reason why people do not get revenge is simply because of fear that they will get sent to jail or worse. There are ways around it though if you think about it hard enough. If you write about it without using their names or appearances you can definitely get away with it. Some people do deserve to get their revenge. Bully victims should be able to get back at their aggressors because if they did less people would be bullied.


I love to write about revenge because there are many people out there that deserved to get it served to them. I write for the victims of bullying, and I write it because I am one of the writers crazy enough to go there. I love getting back at people.

I do not do it in real life because it is not worth it. Those people are not worth paying attention to either. I have it stay in the story world, and I love making stories where people get what they deserve because I see too many people in real life getting away with it.

I write about it to get back at those people who do mean things, and people who do crimes and get away with it.  My character loves getting back at people especially the mean high school girls who bully people to death to the point where the victims kill themselves. I have the most fun with revenge stories, and I will hopefully have a collection dedicated to revenge out soon. 

Until next time,
Wolfdreamer25

Anger and Hate Are Not Bad

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Having anger and hatred in your system is not good for you. I am a prime example after being angry and hateful most of my life I know all too well what it does to a person. It causes issues mentally and physically. It makes being with other people difficult because the littlest thing can make you go over the edge.
Wanting revenge is also a sign of hatred against the people you hate, but some people take it to the next level. Some people actually methodically plan out revenge, and if successful it lasts for a few minutes for the guilt to set in. That way to go is not advisable because the legal system is a pain in the ass taking days out of your life in court. Not worth it.
There is another way to deal with those emotions though. Writing about it. Not using actual names of course, but taking the emotions and using them for something good and constructive. Writing about the situation that you are angry about or the types of people that make you hate or angry, and continually bashing it over and over again until it goes away. Writing about people getting it because of what they said and did. I thought if I ignore the bad things it would go away, but no it turns out it is here to stay.
That is how I found my strength writing about the darker stuff until it does not bother me. I found those emotions as a catalyst to boost me to the next level. I use it like fuel making me write, and that is the reason why I do not feel like writing because I hated those emotions. That is probably the thing that is going to up my writing to the next level because I am turning those emotions into something constructive instead of destructive. I finally accepted what kind of writing I am good at, and how to handle certain emotions instead of letting it ruin my life.

Turning the past into writing.

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I used to be obssessed with the past. I used to think how I could have done things differently as if I could go back in time, and change things. I thought if I change this then that would not have happened, and I would have felt this way. I wanted at one point to try to change things, but that did not work everytime I tried to something else would go wrong. I stopped thinking about getting even at certain people because it would not have changed things. I could also get in trouble, and ruining everything for revenge would not be worth it. I would loose everything friends, family, jobs, and it would not be worth the trouble. Today I thought about the past for a good reason, and it made me come up with more depth for my story. More ways to use it as a catalyst for better things. I used all the emotions from my past into fuel for writing. Writing helps you tap into using the past as a jumping off point to help your writing. All the emotions that I felt I used in my stories. I wrote characters in some of the situations I went through, and changed it. Try it though, and you will see how the past can help you with your writing. That is what being a writer is about using the past as inspiration.

Payback..

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 Salina cried for the last time that day. She was lonely, and watching a romance movie as usual. The movie went on about love and relationships, and she realized how lonely she was. Her ex left her a few days ago, and she found out he had already moved on was in a relationship, and on top of that moving in with the girl.

        She cried a few more hours, and went to  a nearby bar to drown her sorrows. She sat down ordered a drink, and spotted a very attractive man looking at her spiked brown hair, brown eyes with a devilish glint in his eyes. He was encased from head to toe in leather with a 45 on his side and a total bad boy he was just her type. She felt a whole lot better and her ex was completely forgotten. She got even more excited when the guy sat next to her. “Why are you sad pretty lady?”

        She told him the story abour her troubled past. “Wow, what a jerk. I really do not understand how a rotten guy like him got you in the first place, and he is so assholish for doing that to a hot young thing as well. He did not deserve you at all. He especially did not deserve an attractive girl like you anyway.Guys like him are better off chasing jailbait, and screwing underages then a mature female like you.  My name is Chip Stevenson by the way.” They both shook hands, and Salina felt like the happiest girl in the world, and best of all he was more attractive, muscular, and taller than her ex. He was the most sexiest guy on the planet. She forgot about her ex then right, and there because of the gorgeous hunk talking to her. He seemed like a total dream boat, attentive, understanding, and patient. 

        Chip continued to talk, “I am a Hollywood producer that is my job, and I was looking for a girl like you to play the main lead. This is the whole plot: A sexy vampire hunter falls in love with a vampire.” She thought about it and replied, “Yes.” After all things like this happen once in a life time, and she did not want to pass up on the opportunity it. She also wanted to work with, and get closer to Chip.
Chip flew her to Hollywood, and she went on to make millions and millions of dollars. She got married to Cip, and had 3 beautiful children.
  And her ex.. He ended up with no girlfriend because she cheated on him with another guy. No job because he was too lazy to get a real one. No family because they abandoned him for his treatment of his past girlfriends. He wound up lonely and miserable for the rest of his life. Until an ex girlfriend found him, and shot him to death for treating her that bad.
The End!
Guys treat your girls with respect so you do not end up like him!!

Revenge on bullies, and why it is not worth it..

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I was bullied in elementary, middle, and high school. They were awful people who would name call, spread rumors, and stab me in the back. I no longer think about getting back at them though. Telling them how I feel about what they did would really give them attention that they do not deserve.

I read articles on the internet on people facing the same thing I did. I wish I could tell them to ignore it. The bullies will not matter once you get to college. I saw the people who bullied me, and I feel sorry for them because they must be miserable. They are not worth thinking about, or talking to because people have better things to do then obsess about jerks.

People bully to get attention, and that is the main reason why they do it. If you ignore them then your not paying them any attention at all.