I just ended a four and a half year relationship, and it did not feel good at all. It was for the best since I had to do it for my sanity. He did not get me at all, and nothing against him but we were not compatible. On the other hand I have time to focus on school, writing, reading, and working. I have time for friends and family. I can concentrate on VCU. I don’t plan on getting back into a relationship for now since this is the second time I can experience freedom. I can enjoy life, and have fun at VCU. I can flirt with guys, and go back to my old self. I changed so much, and it was not enough. I will never change for a person again. I hated the drama too, and it caused me too much stress especially during the school year when I had a test. It got to be too much when I was fighting with him every month, and I did not want to be miserable for the rest of my life to keep someone happy. Sometimes people are just not compatible, and thank god I have friends and family helping me. I did not want to lean on people because I did not want to seem weak. I did though, and I started seeing friends and family more to help ease the pain. It worked, and working on my stories helps too. I want to turn the pain into something creative. Moving on from something fun is hard, but it is better then being miserable. I missed freedom to do whatever I wanted. I missed not having limits, and I will enjoy my freedom before getting someone. I don’t need a boyfriend in order to be happy I need me. I will find someone better, and each relationship prepares you for the next. As dark as the road can be there is always a light at the end of the journey through life.
Until next time,